Lately, I've been going through this Artist's Way program. It's bringing up all kinds of buried thoughts and beliefs I've been ignoring for weeks, months, years. One of those buried treasures I'm facing is all about the blogging. What was running through my head as I sat down to the computer with the New Post tab glaring at me was this:
- No one cares about your stupid fears
- No one cares about your fitness journey
- No one wants to read your crappy attempt at writing a self indulgent blog
- It's not like you have anything to offer anyone anyway
- Shut up and get on with your life
Writing down those 5 thoughts above, I realize just how ridiculous they all are. Those thoughts are not only cruel and mean, they're just not true. And even if they are true, it doesn't matter anyway because I created this blog and continue to write it for my own benefit, no one else. The truth is that I enjoy this blog, I enjoy this journey I'm taking with Living Active, I enjoy writing (even if it is just jumbled thoughts sometimes).
Would I like to be more widely read in the land of blogz? Yes
Do I think I can improve on my writing? Yes
Just because I can see areas for improvement, doesn't mean I have to accept a negative self image or put up with the verbal abuse I suffer from myself. The free will I have been gifted allows me the choice to improve what I can. The serenity prayer comes to mind.
God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change
Courage to change the things I can and
The wisdom to know the difference
Change just takes a little bit of courage. If I'm not worth a little courage, then who/what is?
What fears and irrational bitchy thoughts are keeping you from facing yourself?
What can you do to end the battle and start taking better care of yourself?